the time has come

to consider transferring to another school. Don't get me wrong, SVA is an amazing school with amazing opportunities available to the students and everything, but I just feel like I'm not able to fully indulge in what I desire to do within photography. That's photojournalism. There's a total of two classes that I've found that really try to focus on the aspect of documentary photography: Social Documentary I and Soc. Doc. II.

I'm in both.

And my teacher's great and I may even begin to intern for him, but I just feel like going to critique classes where more conceptual work is favored along with not wanting to shoot a damn thing in NYC (or if I do, it is not accessable) is just not cutting it out for me.

I've been more unhappy this semester with school than I have in my first two years, and I think it's because I'm realizing I can't keep bullshitting stuff that I honestly, deep down, don't want to shoot intently.

So I'm at a loss. I'm going to talk to my seminar teacher, Eric Weeks, tomorrow and see how I feel afterwards.

If I did transfer, I hope it would mean to a place with people who I'm more likely to get along with rather than the people at this school. Though maybe I never really gave them a chance.

I feel myself slipping. And I'm not sure how to stop it.