whew.

its been a while.
a long while.

but i think im going to try to start using this again. I know i stopped because i was having a lot of trouble uploading pictures. they were probably just too large, and i'm probably just too special to figure it out.

anyways, it's summer time in the city now. and just yesterday it really started to feel like it. Spring lasted a whole good two weeks. Now its sweltering hot out and i sit here spread eagle in front of a fan with one of the worst sunburns i've ever had.

I'm pretty sure my last posts were about my junior year photography angst. But school's over now and I kind of have my head on straight about it. Though I'm sure that will end the second I walk into my thesis class this upcoming September.

Life's been stagnant yet for the first time (in the city at least) enjoyable. I've been working about 40 hours at the barnes for the past couple of weeks to help save up money which isn't really saving up, it's just ending up going to shit that I owe, like rent, phone bills, and metro cards. I have a glorious website that my boyfriend's friend made for me waiting to be put up but I can't afford the domain yet. So that is lame.

Most of my savings is going towards a road trip I'm taking to Texas with Chris. He is moving back for good. It's hard. But he needs to be with his friends and family and needs to go back to school and a school with a reputation, rather than stupid CUNY borough of manhattan community college. So it's a good thing. Just hard in figure out where it will leave us and our relationship. But ultimately I think everything will work out for the best.

I'm really excited for the trip down. We planned it out last night and we're looking at about 4 days of an average of 6 hour drives with stops in Williamsburg, VA; Kannapolis, NC; Nashville, TN; Hot Springs, AR; and the our final destination of Dallas, TX. It should be a nice little trip. Though I do have to do some driving and I'm not gonna lie about how I'm a little nervous about that. I haven't driven in almost a whole year since that bastard old man rammed my car. Not too mention I'll be driving a Ford Expedition and not my usual '91 Honda Civic. Practice hours in the parking lot....I think so.

and if any truckers fuck with me and tailgate or box me in, I'll probably start crying. hahaha

I've also been hanging out with friends rather than just sitting on my ass at mine, or chris' apartment which was the norm for the past 3 years. So it's been nice. I realized the only reason I hated the city was because I just didn't have friends, or anyone to enjoy it with. Don't get me wrong I still can't wait to get the shit out of this place, but it's not so bad anymore. I just had to get my ass in gear.

Jill just visited this weekend and it was a blast. A bad time is never a possibility with that girl. Even if we are sad because of all the bullshit drama smithtown brings us, it's still awesome having her to be sad with. Though I've realized while she was here, what a different person I become while she's around. Not drastically, I'm just louder and more excited and I don't really know how to explain it, but I'm afraid it affected my other friends, so I'm not really sure what to make of that. Then I think about it and don't really feel too bad about it considering I feel the best I ever feel when she's around so that should be good news, right?


Well besides finding out that people have been actually TRYING to sabotage my life and emotions, that's really all that's been going on.

Au revoir for now.
Hopefully I'll be able to keep up with this thing better.
Though lack of internet may be a large obsticle in that dream...sucks.


-erika.