dream 1.

i think i may start posting some of my dreams in here. to record them, and also just as a reference because i have a journal at home i started about two years ago for dreams, but havent been writing in it, but lately ive been having the strangest dreams, so i just wanna write down my few from last night so i can remember them when i get back to write them down...

- I was in a house talking to the girl from the cage who looks like maggie gyllenhaal and she had her friends and was kind of ignoring me at first. the house was filled with people and a man in the music industry (lets just call him Bob) walked in and she started freaking out when i said he was there. she grabbed my hand and pulled me to another room to show me this book which was filled with memorabilia from the band, as well as a finger...her finger. it wasn't bloody or rotting, it had been frozen for a while so it was just hard. She proceeded to tell me that at a show one time, Bob had pulled on her hand so hard while singing, that he pulled it off. I played it cool that was totally normal, yet inside even though i knew it was fucked up, i was jealous haha. She disappeared and i went over to talk to Bob, finger still in hand. We started talking about it, and he didn't seem to be shocked, like it happens all the time. Then we started talking about other stuff, and for some reason the only thing i can remember while trying to remember what we talked about is a grandmother. i don't know whose though. Then i remember being distracted by stuff, i ran off and he was reading a book. i feel like i was forced to take a shower or something, and all the while i was trying to keep an eye out for Bob cause i wanted to go back and talk rather than do whatever it was i was doing with everyone else, but i saw him close his book and head up the staircase. Thats when i woke up.

- it was christmas time, and i was with a big family, whom was made up of celebs; i just can't remember who they were. i know it was longer than i can remember but all i really remember is our houses circling a big big big christmas tree outside like in 'How the Grinch Stole Christmas.' i just remember opening a lot of presents and then two uncles or something dug tunnels in the snow and had tunnel wars. Its sad i can't remember a lot from this one cause i know it was much more detailed and much more cracked out.

- i was supposed to go on vacation with a friend's family. we were going to a cabin, but as i soon found out, the trip was a life or death situation and the dad needed us all to practice making a rescue tape, in case we got separated or something, and needed help. he bought extreme winter gear that fit everyone in the family in case someone got hypothermia and needed everyone elses jackets and stuff to keep them warm. i was freaked out but still wanted to go. I knew i had my 35mm camera with me but was already on the plane when i realized i forgot my digital camera and i got really really really bummed out. and my friend was like, its alright, you have your film camera. you can just pull it off and be 'artsy.' we laughed but i still hated myself for forgetting my digital camera. gee... you think thats a metaphor for my dream life?


well thats all the ones i had last night.
hopefully ill post some more in the future.

Ps. i have a fascination with dreams due to "12 Dreams" by James Lapine. It's a true story. read it.

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Her work is both technically and aesthetically beautiful. It arouses a kind of nostalgia for the innocent, adventurous times in childhood. or at least it does for me.

She's also an awesome girl, and i kind of miss her a lot.

new beginnings.

school starts next tuesday.
im kind of excited, and at the same time not.

though, once it does i have a feeling i will be spending a LOT of my free time in the labs. which kind of excites me. ill also be able to post more, which is a good thing i guess, but not really considering nobody even reads this.

biopsy.
i got one.
i need to get seven more...

i can't even fathom the feeling of passion i have right now for a) getting a tattoo and b) never working and just running off to little suburban towns and going on adventures and taking pictures while i do it. hgdslghkslajgkdsaj.

i had a job interview today.
im not too stoked on it.
but i AM stoked for $10/hour. hey. its more than what i make now so whatevs.


smithtown tonight. :)

sick??

no. not sick. health wise at least. sick of B&N...maayyybe. so i took the day off to come here to school and search for a new job. hopefully one photo related.

Jillian is home from Paris, and coming in tomorrow to reunite with me so we can fall in love and frolic in the city together. lots of stuff has been happening and we realize that whatever happens in one of our lives, happens to the other sometime shortly after. we lead the same life, its actually kind of scary, yet comforting. though I'm sure this may be the case with most best friends. then again maybe not.

going to see pineapple express for free tonight. I'm looking forward to it because I have a raging crush on Seth Rogan, but you know, it looks pretty funny, too.

oh and Chris got a DOG! a puppy chocolate lab, her name is Sadie. She's beautiful and it sucks that I probably won't get to meet her until christmas time. I wish I had my phone cable so I could upload a picture of her.

I don't really know why I'm updating. I have nothing good to talk about.
Sorry.
I don't even have a good picture to post....i blew it. ;(